last weekend i really felt the baby drop. he's been sitting so low. i was no longer able to do my jeans up, had difficulties keeping my belly contained in my shirt, and all i was thinking about was when the contractions would start so i could finally get to hold my baby! my doctor has been in cambodia on a personal trip since may 18th (my last doctor's appointment) so i've been hoping that the baby would hold off until at least he got back from his trip. he finally made it back so things should be all good to go now. or so you'd think...
i had my doctor's appointment yesterday at 38 weeks 6 days...8 short days until my due date! expecting to go in and get some good words that things are progressing just as they should be, my cervix is thinning, starting to dialate, baby is low...you know, all the normal stuff you would expect to hear at nearly 39 weeks. well, this baby had other plans.
the doc took my measurements which were all normal, then he grabbed his doppler and was listening for the heartbeat. it took him a few seconds to actually locate it where we always do which of course gets a first-time-mom's mind wandering like mad. i kept reassuring myself - you've felt him move like crazy the past few days (and hours), so everything is fine. doctor says that the baby's heartrate is great, but he for some reason can't seem to hear it well enough to hear valves opening and closing. we've gotten the heartbeat in the same spot for like 25 weeks, so what's changed?
baby has turned breech. yes, at 39 weeks he's flipped into a breech position.
we've got an emergency ultrasound scheduled for wednesday, june 2 at 2pm to confirm the baby's positioning. should he remain breech, it looks like we'll be getting a c-section.
after thinking about things and letting my mind settle, it all began to make sense. i've never been able to vision myself having a baby (like the whole labouring process, etc). i've maintained that throughout my pregnancy. i've said to my close family & friends many times that i know i'm pregnant, i feel pregnant; but other than that, i don't picture myself having a baby. and to think, i was still saying that at 39 weeks. i had no desire to do prenatal as i figured it just wouldn't benefit us...what couldn't we learn from books and the internet?
maybe i'm crazy, but i think subsciously my body and mind knew something like this would happen.
and who am i to complain? i've had an absolutely blissful picture-perfect pregnancy! i've not let anything hold me back. i went to las vegas, i had no morning sickness, i've been able to remain active, i've absolutely loved every second of it. so why complain now? i'm going to wind up with a perfectly healthy baby regardless...so i think it just seems right to let the baby gods do their work; regardless if that means c-section or natural delivery.
i'm anxious to get this ultrasound out of the way on wednesday. i know he's breech, i can feel him way up in my ribs again. his head is positioned right under my right ribcage...a place i haven't felt a foot in a couple weeks as he's been sitting so low. my jeans do up again without difficulties, and it seems baby is just content floating up top.
it's hard to describe the overwhelming feeling when you're 39 weeks pregnant and have had the baby's head down forever and then one week...ONE WEEK before your due date he flips. i'm not scared; i have an amazing support team. from my husband, to my parents, my in-laws, my friends...i know everyone will help me out with my recovery. i guess i just wasn't quite prepared to hear the doctor's words at that time. but...life goes on. c-sections happen all the time and everyone winds up with a healthy happy baby. and i'm going to be one of them!
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